It is always in those moments of deep stress, self doubt, loss, or adversity that people look for support in silly little idioms. We’ve all heard them, and when times are going great we snort with derision. But when it is our time to make it through the trough in life’s waves, they stand out. Everyone has been told: “the greatest journey, started with a single step” or “where one door closes, another one opens” or my *favorite* “Just let go, the universe has a plan for you”. Seriously? Do you honestly think the universe really gives a crap whether or not I am alive, let alone if I can pay my cable bill? Get my car fixed? I am sorry but that is just a tad too egocentric for my tastes. In my short life, patterns have become apparent. As fully functioning adults we need to embrace the patterns and work with them.
With the birth of our daughter, not only did we become an amazing family, but she also gave me an outlet for my artistic creativity. I have always loved making things, I believe that everyone is unique and has the right to express who they are. I do it through my craft. I especially enjoy taking old items, I call them “finds”, dismantling them and giving them new life. Either as a toy, an accessory, a household item, or even clothing. Since my youth I always collected these “finds”, even today I have pieces I collected years ago… still waiting for their ultimate purpose!
The amazing thing is, there were people who loved my designs (especially those I made for my daughter) so much that they bought them. Lots of them! Of course this has added to the inspiration.
As my daughter grows (we are now into year 2) she continues to inspire the items I focus on. Does she like to play with cars? or is she more interested in silk scarves? What is she choosing to wear? What catches her eye? Well, for right now there is no absolute answer to those questions. She will put the silk scarves on her hot wheels and push them around the floor, or she will have 5 socks on one foot, a headband around her neck… and nothing else. She will crawl into my fabric stashes and pull everything out, just to bury herself in the softness. But one thing for sure, if I make it for someone else, she wants it.
But times are changing in our household. We grow and expand, we all learn and move onto bigger and greater things. Recently I was asked, “if no one bought a single thing more from you… would you still continue to make things? new designs?” My clear and instant response is “emphatically, totally, and undeniably: YES”. I made things long before anyone considered to trade or purchase them from me, and I will be here long after my shop closes. (Granted I hope that this is a long way off!)
I do not craft my art with intent to sell, I do not redesign to fill the shelves. I construct works of beauty, because that is what I do.
I love the challenge.
I believe in expressing myself.
And I know there are other people out there that have the same aesthetics as I do.
I do not want to become the next one hit wonder, I do not want retail stores across the world. What I love most is the pictures sent of other little boys and girls happily playing or wearing my designs. I love having friends, family, and even complete strangers send me stuff and ask me “what can you make for me?”
So yes, times are a changing. A few big changes in our household will effect my ability to turn items out at a quick rate. But I know, those who love my work will understand that what they get is well made, from quality materials, and unlike what you find elsewhere. Even if for the foreseeable future it will take a little longer.
You see, I accepted a new full time job. Our daughter will be going to school with her father. The studio will be a footnote in our lives for the time being. But this also means that my need for an artistic outlet will be in even greater need. So I hope you will enjoy all the new changes to my Etsy shop and facebook fan page, and will enjoy all the new designs that flow from my head into reality! Even if they take a little longer to make an appearance.
The times are a’changing, and we are looking towards these new adventures with open arms!